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I've been granted the week off from my crew boss, He was listening to me do my 'other' work, and sed, "hey, you know, you could take this week off to get ready for the 8000 drums event you're hosting.."

I looked at him and sed, "ok..thanks..." and off I went.

Yes. 8000 drums. It is goin to be a spiritual awakening. There are about 90 drummers in my own home territory here, I expect them all to be there. We will drum simutaneously with the rest of the other drummers in Turtle island at a certain time. Even though, most drummers...here in our region... handfuls come from certain traditional territorys. Therefore returning to their own territory for this event. I hired our best caterer, just asked her to make a menu, estimate the cost, and give me some numbers in the morning, and we will go do banking.

"I love working for you" she sed, "I never have to worry about purchase orders, cheques, or waiting for two weeks for the cheque to clear or nothing..you do it all straight cash..."

As it should be, really.

Work has been HORRENDOUS the last week or so, I switched over to graveyard shift, for like four days, I could not eat right at all. before I was able to eat something, i was too dam tired. There is a lot of muscle work on graveyard shift to. I got all my muscles measured, we're gonna remeasure them in two weeks. Which I think is funny. hilarious really.

Its nice to get the week off though. I could rest, and take my time in preparations. How they all fall into place, I could spend an hour or two longer in Lytton, really visiting around while I go down to pick up some salmon. I could really make sure hand drum site is in clean ... accommodating condition ... drop a load of wood off, all that jazz..instead of rushing around in the three hrs I have after and before work starts every day...

I flew through last weekend and people were asking me what it is that I do in my life.

I could not begin to think...of where to start.

For the longest time, I know I've been busy...multitasking, chasing my heart...making sure my people know who I am... if I am not at a conference, I am out in the land, if I am not out in the land, I am chasing my heart, if I am not chasing my heart, I am carving something beautiful...you know? busy that way.

all the whole while, trying to fit drumming in here and there...singing at this ...

spring is beautiful

it helps clear the air.

shes home now... and we have a lot of talkin to do

yes, i have this urge to travel to hawaii in may

and then this other urge to go to amsterdam in august

and then freakin vegas in november

i was telling myself the other day

i sed, "Self.. you gotta do the historical research...in uniform settings..before you turn jet setter again.. you owe youself that much..."

Translation: "You have to go in to the ottawa museum, the huge museums in new york, and where ever else you can find the history of your own people...find out what is out there about your own people.."

right now, it still seems like a school assignment.

but it has to be done

especially if i keep getting offers to teach the history of our people at our local college, and public schools

its a must do

because i want to be able to say, "yes...i've dug through every bit of information the museum of man, the museum of civilization has to offer about the history of our people here..." to all my students.

its crazy this little fight i have with myself everytime i look at a Hawaiian brochure..a pow wow of all things in hawaii... and i want to go ...i want to go..i cannot say that enough...

its a heartbeat fly by the seat of my pants kind of urge to just do it...just go...

i was at the roullette table last thursday night

immersing myself..distracting my lonely heart

shes still in ottawa and this is our third week apart

and it seems forever...

now i know how she felt when i left for haida gwaii for seven weeks

we had absolutely no contact at all

i just asked her to trust me and that was that.so when we reunited

i knew then.this is it..

my life will never be the same without her

anyways

i tore up the roullette table...  i broke it

i dont think they want me back there for awhile

i was playing dollar value

and won over fifteen spins in a row

with an average of fifteen dollars a spin..

translation: "I randomly picked about fifteen to twenty numbers..and won each time..."

hell of a night

lets you and me hope that i dont make casino visits a frequent thing...

saturday night i ran off to a medicine dance

this was just beautiful

it was intense and very well organized.. i was so happy to witness such discipline and respect

i dont see that often

but holy smokes

because of the intensity...i was giving it all the spiritual energy i had...

*it was such a powerful thing...it pulled all the spiritual out of me in such a way where it was all i wanted to give...remember in the latest Ocean's 13? where the boys had to go to mexico to work in that factory to modify the dice? and they got so caught up in the politics they were generating protests? that was how it felt for me that saturday night.. i got caught up in it ..*

anyways..it was so intense

i woke up from it all

just weak and tired...and sore..from all the dancing...

and it was great...and the way the sun was shining that day..made it all..that much more beautiful..and powerful and spiritual...a total reawakening..

theres one more medicine dance this weekend..

the last one i will go to for the year..

and yes

you guessed it

i am goin to make the most of every second i'm there...

give it all i got...

i better get on to some sleep time

its goin to be a long tuesday

tuesdays are the muscle days in my world

i spend a lot of time doing a lot of muscle work at my work site..

and rest is essential

the entire work site, stopped to a standstill tonight..as we watched the moon...

what an odd sight..to see something so..red..full..'out there'

it reminded me of "Apocolypto"

It reminded me that there were societies..and societies..probably in full prayer at that moment..

it reminded me that there was someone out there somewhere..wondering what i thought of it all..and if at all.. did i pay any sort of heed to the memory of 'us' whispering on the wind, "yes I love you...always.."

after the half an hour mark, everyone else creeped away..slowly stepping back in to their work mind thought..

i stayed idle...wondering.. where was I the last time this happened..

and are the people..i watched this with..the last time..watching it now? are they remembering me as i remember them?

yes..

i nearly grabbed my cell phone..and dialed them just to find out..

in a few breaths...i settled back and just wondered more.. wondering if they were wondering if i was wondering.. and smiled..at the thought..

yet again

another HUGE change is looming on the springtime..

i am looking forward to it...

for awhile there i was feeling that i was responsible for their addictive behaviors..

and for awhile i wanted to run and jump on the wagon the drove them to their addictive ways...

and then realised..that is 'them' and not me..and there is nothing wrong with that...

i nearly lost myself..

i am hoping in another year..i can let them go...with them letting me go...

and that will be that..they can soak in it on their own...

its a nice warm thought..

waking up..to this sunlit morning..

where there is no stale air.. no aftermath of an addict gone mad..neglected..

soon... i can hope..this will take place soon...i dont need it...

"We're sloggin through two feet of mud..." she says.

I nod. "yes.. i can imagine.."

"Where is your signifigant other..i have not seen her in a few weeks..shes usually bringing you lunch.." she asks.

"Shes off on contract work in ottawa.. will be til the end of feb.." i say.

She nods.."Cool..tell her i sed hi.."

"yea.."

"funny..how glamour jobs come out of the woodwork..when the fiscal yr is coming to the end.." she scoffs

"I am glad you didnt go for it.. you make good money here.." she sed looking at the moon.

"Yea..i know..its goin to take a lot for me to leave this job...I like how its permanent..indefinitly permanent.."  I say.

"Hows the carving coming along?"

"Eh..its there.. i have orders to do six drums..all separate clients..so I am just waiting on the hide..they all liked my personal drum..and want one just like it..but thers no way they are getting my personal design.thats mine.. i figure if i sit long enough i can find a design to their liking.." i say.

"Any flutes?" she asks

"Yes.. but that will come in time.. some pretty good ideas are coming..its just a matter of making time..for it.." I say.

loving the block users feature

got the day off work today

had some major time with my neice

she is growing so fast

did some long ago neglected chores

changed my living room around... yet tomorrow i fear that i may have aligned my couch

my little snuggle nest i go when i finish my workday

is in the area where the sun shines the most around about 2-5pm

even though i work from 1pm on til about 9 or so

there will be weekends... where i will HAVE to lay on the couch in the afternoon

how about that superbowl

i really did think that the patriots won

really..it was ONLY thirty five seconds left

"We lost ONE game.. and by gawd..it had to be the SUPERBOWL..."

"It was ONLY the superbowl.."

"we picked a fine time to lose a game..."

i was furious...being a virgo..i was furious with them..

all that stuff about perfection...maticulate.. i was just seething...

still

i am busy

its good to be busy with me..

i find that when i am lookin for something to do..trouble finds me really easy

and i always let it

and we always end up paying for it in the long run

and i always swear it off

but still..

i feel i am in financial idle mode right now

this is good

its just a matter of plumping up my accounts and keeping it that way

and i figure if i stay away from shopping and holiday trips to places like hawaii, vegas, london

i could really be saving TONNES

"Elizabeth - The Golden Age" is coming out on tuesday

this was a really good show for me..

i could watch it over and over

I just nod

We are being served dessert

It is a nice subtle fruit cobbler, a beautiful way to top off our greek dinner.

I drink my tea

She orders a spanish coffee

"it is so cold out there..I hope the homeless are doing alright.." she says

I nod.

"Yea..me to..." and start telling her my involvement with homeless people.

(As I've typed the word 'homeless' periodically I've had to respell..it from HOPELESS..go figure)

To the beautiful world..and its beautiful people

especially those ones who google my name...to read my blog

I know thers some interesting stuff in here..a little outdated.

But thank you

for making me the centre of YOUR world for however long you read this

maybe..

if youre brave enough

you could introduce yourself to me someday

I hear I am easily approachable

its a long day

i start work at 330am

i work til lunch

and then have to sing at a funeral and then a mtg

with a beautiful spirit who is in the middle of her transgender transition

by four pm, i am hoping to be soundly asleep

its been a long freakin week

Yeah, Holy..Happy New Year.

Hope it was a good one.

Mine was really nice.

We travelled all over our Interior...for kicks..spent most of it..on the road, in hotel rooms.. nice restaraunts

It was so good to just get away from the homeland for a bit.

First we went off to where we thought everyone who was anyone would be

BC's hugest pow wow for the new yr celebrations

Sure enough...the place was just packed

but you know how some big auditoriums can be...COLD..and dark..

we thought it wasnt good to be there..

the idea of TOO much people..lineups for food,drink...  wasnt appealing at all

Got one of the last rooms available that night... we rested..til about 5am and had the sudden urge to

"Hey..we really dont have to be here right now do we? No.. where is it.. does your heart long to be? besides with me.." I asked.

"Oh.. i would like to visit the eagles in squamish.." she says

"Let us go to squamish..for brunch.." i tell her and off we went.

Stopping briefly in stolo's finest smokehouse.. sang with some singers..and away we went

"This.. (she waves her hand through the air) here.. a feeling.. of peace.. " she says

I just look out in the vision we hold in our eyes..eagles and more eagles perched on treetops, ground.. rocks

Nod my head, "yes..my love...I know.."

and in our silence we drink it all in.

a few hrs later...finaly getting our fill we drive back to stolo

sing some more..and by the new year.. we were soundly alone..

and the whole world outside hollared, hooped..honked..and hay'd

"this really isnt my new year.. my new year realy starts on june 21.. the first day of summer.." i tell her.

she smiles.."thats nice.. tell me why.."

and I spend the better part of the night, telling her about spirituality..and how I came to know it and why

my new year was my new year...

by the new yrs tuesday, we make our way home

I start getting ready for work

We are in the process of taking care of the forest surrounding my territory

over 85% is affected by the pine beetle

my job is to go in, mark it off, cut it down and destroy the bug kill

"I figure, this job I have now...really speaks of how I would like to be a caretaker of the land... it tells the people here..that I really care for the land.. and its future..tell me; how many others do you know of are doing the same thing?"

I am on the land 12 hrs a day, sometimes longer because of the snow.

We are having a coldsnap, and by 5pm its -19, we are not allowed to work when its more than -24

it will cause the heavy machinery we operate to freeze up and break

Even now, its hard, because the cold steel freezes right to your gloves.

and when we are outside too long our eyelashes freeze together making it that much harder to blink

the days progress because of the coldsnap has slowed down considerably

our performance is now being dictated by the cold...and the possibility of breaking down

last night, we had to drag a semi truck uphill, it was too icy and he didnt put his chains on at the bottom of the hill. today, we had to double sand the road they drive on

and because we have an excess amount of wood to destroy, the fire mound is over twenty feet high and has about a 90 foot radius...this means smoke..swirling flames..purple hazy flames.. it is beautiful..

she is here now..more than six days at a time

and when she leaves its only for a few hrs

sometimes she leaves back to her home territory for the time I am at work

and its like we've never missed a beat.

slowly

shes moving her office into my studio

slowly

shes directing her calls to my house

slowly

the people here are calling her and I "you two"

slowly

it makes me want to trust

and I am almost scared

I've never been this serious with 'anyone' for about two yrs

i have to say

I really like her honesty and trust

"you gotta keep her around..I really like the way she laughs" my gramma says

'she' is the first thing my family asks about

"how is she..what is she doing..where is she.."

and the cool thing..we've only been involved now since october

hence the infrequent mindsay updates

"hey, chummy... long time. how much you buyin in for.." Jaytea my favorite dealer says.

"Lets start off w/ 20.." i say.

"good holidays?" he asks.

I nod.."yea.."

a half an hour goes buy

a friend walks up.."hey chummy.." nudge my shoulder..

I smile.

and the only thing I say,

"Its been four days...its either smoking or gambling...i chose smoking."

there was a warm response...

another hour goes by

"I need to step away from the table..." I say.

A little while later, people are noticing I am quieter than usual...even with the last six wins...I am not as boisterous..

"How are things.. my friend.." Deana asks.

"I'm just..I dont know..wondering...about stuff.. like...I have this blog... here and there.. and like.. how on earth does Google show up on my recent visitors list..and stuff.." i say.

"There has to be a glitch.." she says. "Or someone who doesnt want you to know..is googling your name..."

and I start freaking, "oh mygosh stalkers...STALKERS..."

"Hands up.." she says, "Who googles my friends name..."

Its been a wierd holiday so far.

Instead of the usual feelings of being 'nailed' down at home, this year; i have been granted access to my wings. Yet I feel as though I have no where to go, no one to see.

I could jump into my truck right now and drive six hours in any direction

and friends would wonder why it is that I show up on their doorstep...

why I am still here?

I have this unbelievable feeling of tired going on.

We were at work at four am, just to find that there were a few important wires ripped out...and left live.

so its been a really lazy day.

and its been a lazy week...

and I am tired of it.

I really need somewhere to go...

I have to tell you more about Vegas

Little did I know I would barely sleep through the entire week I was there

My last two days, It was crazy

The last night i was there, I never even went back to my hotel room

Just long enough to get my bags packed at 1030am, check out time was 11am

I met a couple of lady's... who didnt even tell me who they were until my last night there

Turns out they were dealers for the MGM casino...and when it was time for them to go on shift

they sent me off to dinner..and told me to meet them at a certain  roulette table

and i was thrown over by the surprise...

which was TOTALLY COOL...

because when we met up the first night..they were taking me all over town..my own personal tour guides

had no idea the whole town was open 24hrs a day...

at one point, i was shopping at 4am...like it was noones business

the food was GREAT

it was t-shirt weather..

saw Cirque Du Soleil's "Zumanity" and "O"

was tryin to get into "Stomp" but the seats that were only available were crappy ones

my two tourguides took me to old vegas, its a place called Fremont...and it was lit up worse than christmas

they had a laser show there... cruised into the Palms Casino, the place where they have the "Hart & Huntington" tattoo parlour, the tattoo show you see on tv..i believe its on A& E.. their tattoo prices start out at $150.. just to see what it was like, i asked what it would cost to get a twoony sized bear paw..they sed $150..i kinda freaked out.. and they were snotty as hell... i thought the taxi driver was kidding when he sed, "Those are some really egotistical bastards, you sure you wanna go ther? They will rip you off"

I sed with gleamy eyes, "Yea, for the experience man" ...totally regretted that...

no i did not get a tattoo..i will get one from my trusty tattoo artist here "Rocky" hes good..

it was cool..i could do it again..

i had fun

the best parts were when we were sitting at a roulette table at 5am... and watching all the highrollers throw down thousands of dollars at a time..and it didnt even phase them a bit when they lost

I went down with 1200

I played with 500 the whole time...

I walked out of there with 400 more than what I started out with..

I spent about 300 on souveneirs and food..

when it came down to it, i had about 900 in my pocket when I woke up this morning

and i still have one more day of holiday..

and it makes me want to go watch the game...

I miss my blogging

Been really busy..so busy that it drove me to take an instant holiday on a heartbeat impulse

ended up in Sin City for a week

never slept at all

it was great.. would love to do it again

I am off for a friday night out

we're off to dinner, and then another round in club..dance off the jetlag

Its as though I was the only information highway available to her.(my aunty)

and she thought i was holding out on her

keeping information about something important from her

"Why didnt you tell me about her passing." she sed glaring staight into my eyes.

I looked back, and told her that I thought she already knew...and it wasnt as though I heard first off, it was just a day ago that i heard one of our language teachers crossed over.

It ticked me off though, what am I supposed to do everytime I hear something important

call her EACH EVERY TIME...if i did, it will lose value..and not only that..but gaging the importance of the information..."is it good enough to pass on?"

Work was hectic... lots of muscle involved in todays stuff..and it was minus 11 out this morning at 430am... it made all the steel I had to handle feel icy..and you know when you freeze your hands..and they thaw out and it gets all itchy and puffy..

"i have no problem burning that bridge...shes been devaluing my thoughts for quite awhile now..and tonight just took the cake.."

she told me to my face she didnt believe me when i told her that thers always a line up at the passport office, and people selling their places in line, it didnt matter if she believed me or not, it was just how she put it across, in front of everyone, "YEA RIGHT..THATS BS..YOURE LYING...WHATEVER"

i was embarrassed, i'm never gonna be her friend again

I've been out of the internet loop. I've been more on the land.

First was to map this particular archeological area, and register it with Canada; and have it declared sacred land; therefore..forever protected.

It was a nice success.

Then; my family came together to put closure to a last part of our grieving process of my late uncle the Grand Chief of our territory. We named our local college's main campus after him.

It was so nice to have our entire family come together once again..and face the people who really thought a lot about my uncle.
After that; I was offered a job

I moonlight as a worker now.

I take a 1pm to 9pm shift...and its a lot of muscle work, outside...

We are doin this for a two week trial period; undergo some further testing to see how my head reacts to it, and then make decisions on whether or not; I am suited for this kind of work.

I am hoping so, because the pay is really good, and its my kind of hours.

I do a lot of physical stuff, and I get my mornings off.

On the side; I work on my carving.

I do a lot of my work when I have nothing else to do

it is not often I go into the city

anymore.

Its like I really dont have the time.

and it is good news to me.

So far..I feel like I gained about five pounds

I have not had any trouble with my head at all

since my surguries...I dont even use a third of the medication they think I require to get through a full day.

That is beautiful news.

I have a good appetite, I have times to get some good sleep in...

I still sing a lot.

We are goin to do a ground breaking to build our own personal underground house over at our fasting camp.

At that time; my grandmothers are goin to pass my name down to me..even though they've declared me the name a few yrs ago...they will make it official this coming winter

I will soon be referred to as Sky Song.

By everyone.

I had to fill out papers to have it meet the western mainstream standards, and thats goin to take a few months anyway.

SO much has happened.

And its all on normal people time...standards.

I have this HUGE show coming up in October..in kamloopa it is the national CANDO conference; highend, and they invited me to show my work there.

I've been working nonstop.. (when I can) on my flutes...and other works..

the painting parts FUN..its the actual assembly ...especially the flutes

thers such a high demand for them right now.I am hoping that I will be able to meet that in a timely fashion

To date; Thers three women who have personally ordered a flute off me

its just a matter of tuning them up, and having them ready...

I have four made so far.

Two of them are already paid for

and then a standing order w/ a local indian band..who showcases my work, and uses it as honorariums in their travels..I hear my work is now being displayed in places as far as Nova Scotia, as representation of my people here.

*Beaming*

Yes..I am proud.

It feels like I found my trail.

I miss you though.

I hope you are well...

When I feel financially comfortable; I shall go seek you out..in the Grand Hall..

maybe call your spirit through my coyote songs, and now..a new song..called the

Grand Chief Gordon Antoine Honour Song...

THers been so much change my friend...

it is great.

and worthwhile...

I've even spent a lot of time with a certain someones EX..and realise now..I am glad she left him..

He really is a snake...and should be labelled as such...should the initials RVC mean anything...

I am a good friend his ex now...she is a beautiful woman...and see that she deserves more than what he ever thought of her...especially...in a woman way.

....

how do i start this..

I've been working on a flute all week...

and the end results are close..its just a matter of really fine tuning it..

this is the first time..i 've really concentrated on anything delicate since my head injury surguries...

and so far..this is going really good.

today..i was totally into my work...head down...bending over..EVERYTHING..and it did not affect my head at all...my aunty was just tellnig me though...that i should take it easy...just to make sure

Lets all stay up late...order movies off the satellite..

Lets eat pancakes for breakfast every day

Lets go shopping for hours on end...

eat at fancy restaurants

watch the Cirque...wander the museums..

Lets all take time for ourselves, and get in touch with our playful ways...

We were sitting around outside...looking over my garden and the phone rings.

We just look at each other and let the f***ker ring.

Its been ringing off the hook all morning.

"So...what are your plans for your birthday.." My company asks.

"Oh..I dont know, I was thinking about headin on down to the city..have a gander around the PNE, take myself out to my favorite mexican restaurant, maybe a few hours in the Port Coquitlam Casino..make a huge day out of it.." I say.

"No... clubbing? No house party? No feast?" She asks.

I shake my head.."No.."

"No hunting party? No campout?" She asks.

I shake my head.

"I figure I will be in the mountains in the coming weeks til the snow flies..." I say.

She nods her head. "Nice.."

We start walking down to the river side. Its a nice walk. Refreshing..

"I've been thinking..my friend; you've had this lightening fast recovery from your surgeries, I am totally amazed at how far you came along, I mean really...I've never seen anyone recover this fast ever..." She says.

I smile, "I know, Its been a long journey though...tiring." I say.

We stare out into the flowing water.

"I think it would be nice to have your home care nurse crew over for appetizers to celebrate your birthday.." She says.

I nod, "yes, I think that would be really nice, seeing as to how we've all spent so much time together in the last seven months..."

She laughs to herself, "I remember when you took us to a movie, and then the casino afterwards...NONE OF US wanted to say ANYTHING to our supervisor about that.."

One saturday night, I call all of the people involved with my home recovery; and took them all out for a night on the town. By sunday morning, their supervisor had called each one of their cell phones, wondering why no one was answering. I was supposed to be in sleeping mode by 830pm. We didnt get home til 5am.

"I will call my favorite chef and ask her to make up a menu, and you can arrange for a friday afternoon get together with everyone.." I say.

She smiles, "Of course... and see if you can make an order for crab..."

"Ahh..yes crab cakes..or even legs..." I say getting all excited at the thought.

We walk back up to my house

"I really like partying with you...you make things so much fun" She says.

She is my physiotherapist, and has to check in on me twice a week.

When..I hike out into the Stein..this is what I hear..

the Glacier water boiling through the valley..

it is a constant "SHHHHHHHHH"

and its beautiful

...not only that..

but the vibrant colours of the land...

I was running through the Stein all day

tryin to see how far I could go in..before I had to turn back

At breakfast...I asked my grandmother

"Can I take a run out in to the Stein..while you are here...doing your work?"

(We were at a gathering..not even a mile away from the Stein trail head)

She nodded, "I want you back before supper..dont go TOO far in..you be back by supper"

and off I went..

I spent the entire day

out there..in this beautiful land

and it wasnt enough

I will have to go back...and spend an entire week there...

In the beginning of this week, my phone has been off the hook

"come Sing here.." 

"Bring your drum..."

(I've gone out fishing last night, beautiful time...in the rain mist, and cloudy night...I've reached into the sky and counted the stars...my nephews and I set out a net...and packed home 65 sockeyes...split it all between the three of us, and spent most of monday cutting and hanging them to dry....it was almost festive...)

We were watching our net, every now and then the floats would dive under rapid like...sudden current come whooshing through...was our guess...or a big hit...meaning stourgens are running; and those things are freakin HUGE...one night..a steourgen caught up in our net..which was weaved strong...and when it ripped through, the stourgen  took the entire net, the pole it was hanging off, and the rock the net was tied to... so with eager, and quiet apprehension; my nephews...my boys and I were silently hoping no stergen come running through...

"If you see a large shark like tail..cut the net...and just let the rope go.." we would warn each other.

"Dont fight the net..if its heavy..dont fight it..let the net go.."

"No reaching for stray rope...you drop your knife..let it go..." we would say as we watch a full net complete with floats, rope, floaters..attached..floating downriver. Kind of scared to look harder..afraid we might see some fisherman...hanging for his life...

This is my second year..going down to this river..with my nephews..

Our stories..repeated..from the yrs before. This was our time...my nephews and I.

Stories of their women, their work...their silly buddies..the way life treats them...

Stuff you wouldnt hear them speak anywhere else...

I am sure; that if there were a picture moment..caught..

it would be me..standing near the top of the fish area...with my nephews down riverside...holding the net

and me telling everyone what to do...occassionally crossing my arms..as though I were thinking my way through a complicated chess game...

It makes me feel wise.

Always...the first case of fish we can..goes to single parent families.

To students who are uprooted from our land here..and tacked down into some university..

I was in UVIC the other week

I had a tour through the Faculty of Law

Met some really nice people...

Still..I found a home in the history department...

and with casual "What is your life..."

I was hit..every now and then...

"What is my life..."

occassionally crossing my arms..as though I were thinking my way through a complicated chess game...

I have two weeks off.

One more fishing trip...and two more hunting trips...

and hopefully the rest of the time, I will be in Juliet Creek with the land there...

I now know..what it is I must do...

I find that it will take me about four yrs to get there...

I've been travelling around the Province of BC for about a month now, I just slept in my bed for the first time since July. I didnt care how fancy the food was, how nice the accomodations and scenary... I just wanted to be HOME.

Its fishing season now.

In my travels, I've met some really interesting people.

The times I 've sed,
"Whenever youre in my neck of the woods, Look me up...maybe we will spend time together...and if you ever need a place to stay..."     Probably a hundred times.

I FINALLY ran into this one Irish brother...hes been adopted into the Dakota way of life, and he FINALLY stepped up at the language conference to speak of his story. FINALLY...

"We've heard so many stories of you brother..we've even seen you in the Sundance arbour..but we've never been able to talk..."

He was a wanderer, and he wandered into a family house...they took him in..taught him how to speak the Dakota language, and hes never went home (as in back to Europe) since. It was so nice to see how his efforts matched up to the stories of him.

I now know why students from UVIC are so smart... they have long waiting periods at the Ferry Terminals, and all they have to pass the time is to read books. I stayed at the UVIC residence for a couple of days, talk about flashback...I wonder if they noticed the rapid decline in their rabbitt population yet. I was teaching my cousin how to snare rabbits.

I toured the downtown warfside Victoria with some of the finest people even. We feasted on really expensive seafood...and watched some amazing buskers. I still love your energy my friend, it is so woman

I even met a woman carver, she does totem poles. It was so weird for us to be stuck inside a conference room all day, when we are all so used to being outside, or doing something artistic with our hands.

They fed us really nice, which made the whole entire efforts to maintain my own personal balance.
"If I'm goin to eat THAT much...I will need an outlet for physical maintenance." I sed.

And still, I went all soft and curvy...I cannot wait til this evening, thers a couple of hours of uphill exercise just waiting for me to attempt...its called FISHIN...

Next, Is just rest..plain old rest...I do not want to travel for awhile...I want to stay home and run through the mountains...grow myself up to be a Strong Woman